And Now For Something Totaly Different

So after some heavy post, lets have some fun. So as I was heading to Orem today I started thinking I may be a hippy. No not David, he could never be a hippy you say to yourself and I thought the same thing. But as I gave it more thought I think I just may be. Lets look at some facts. I have been a veg for 6 months now.I have not killed any animals in over 3 years. I spend way to much time in a coffee shop.I have not been shooting in 5 months. I'm letting my hair grow out. I think that people should help each other. I just don't know what to say to myself. I still have some non-hippy things about me so do not worry to much. I still take a shower every day. I think that you should work if you want to eat. I did not veto for Obama. I still believe people should own at least 1 gun. But for the most part I think I have started down a path that may change all that. If you ever see me wearing tie dye please just shoot me.

Kill the Sarx

Warning this post rated PG-13!!
Kill the Sarx and hang him from your rafters. This is the chores line form the song Kill the Sarx by the band Scattered-Few. Sarx is Greek word for flesh.
For far to long my flesh has lied to me. Telling me that I am not smart or creative, letting me know that no matter what people will never love the real me. I must ware a mask so no one see the real me. I must lie so that people will think better of me. That I must hide my tears so they will think that I am strong. That I will never be more then a pile of shit. I have done too many wrong things in life for even God to forgive me, let alone love me. I will never be more then a simple person with little to say and that no one will listen or care any way. I am the same as I will ever be and that I will never be more then I am now. Why try to better yourself or take a chance you will fail like you always have.
You have been with me my whole life. You have filled my hart and soul with your poison. You have made me look at others and think if only I was like them they have it all. You have tried to kill me time and time again. When I would look in the mirror I would repeat your lies back to myself and start to believe them to be true. You told me that I am weak and not worth the love of any one and that the world would be better off if I would just die.
I have fought many battles with you. Some I have won some I have lost. God has given me the strength to win the fights that I have won. He is my strong fortes He delivers and heals me from the poison you would put in me. Against Him you will not stand. You will not have this day or any other day. You told me that I do not have what to takes to complete this new journey that I am on and that I will fail. When times start to look great for me you whisper your lies into my ears and tell me that those things are not meant for me for I am worthless.
Tonight is the last battle that we will have. Tonight I kill you and watch you die and hang you from the rafters. No longer will your poison be allowed to enter me; no longer will I listen to your lies. No longer will I feed you with your self serving sin. No longer will I allow you to sit on the thrown of my hart. That is a place of honor and glory for the one true God. The God who loves me and heals me. The God who will make me the man that He wants me to be. The God who loves me and wants to be known by me. He will provide all that I need He may not give me all that I want but He knows what I need better then I.
I know that you will not go down with out a fight but you are wasting your time. God is greater then you will ever be He is more loyal then any person will ever be. He will fight a million battles for my soul and never rest until I am with Him in His kingdom.
I am David killer of my sarx beloved servant and bride to Christ Jesus. He will have my soul and this day and all the days to come. No one can take me from His arms and no one can stand against Him.
He is the lover of my soul, the king of my life, the warrior how never surrenders. I am His and He is mine. The one true God who makes all things new and all things possible. Thank you my God and King for winning this battle for my soul. You are greater then all and I love you.

How Things Work Out

So, last night I had made plans to hang out with a friend of mine. As my friend lives a pretty crazy life with work and all; they had to cancel the plans we had made which did bum me out as I was looking forward to the time we would spend together. So I just thought I would spend the evening doing wash, home work and cleaning my place. Later in the day I got an email from another friend who is moving out of the state and was in need of some help as they are in a little over there heads with every thing that it take to do a move to a new state. I said that my plans were canceled and I would meet them after work to help out. What I thought would only take an hour or so ended up being an all night thing. I must say that even thou all my plans had not gone as I had seen them I had a great time helping my friend. Even thou we did not get a great deal of stuff done we had a great time talking and just spending a little bit of time together before the move. I was able to see how other members of the body of Christ also blessed this friend. Now to be honest once the first plans had been cancel I was looking forward to the new plans as I have a lot of things to get done before Monday. As many people know life is full of things that you never see coming some good, some bad, and some just the way things work out. I am still in the same place as needing to get things done and maybe even a little bit behind which means I will not be doing any thing fun tonight aside form a trip to Jitterbug Coffee (my new favorite hang-out) to put this on the net. I would not trade last night for all the homework, wash, and cleaning time in the world because I got to spend some time blessing and being blessed by a friend and see them get a little stress lifted off of them. It is pretty crazy how God can make things work out even when you don't see them coming.

Blessing

So my good friend Court has been visiting are great state for the pass week and a half. It has been great to see her and spend some time with her see always make me smile. It did get me thinking about the blessing she has been in my life and of all the great blessing I have. I live a country where I am free to do many great things like go to a church of my choice or not to. I have a great little apartment with landlords that I can trust and have helped me out. I have great friends that put up with all my crap and still like to hang out with me. I have a great relationship with my family witch I know many people do not. I'm working for a good company that takes care of me and I am a respected member of a great church. As I am writing this I'm sitting in a coffee shop drinking and having dinner? How many people in the world won't even eat tonight let alone eat out. I know that when I die I will see my Lord and God face to face I am truly blessed to live this great life.
To many times people look at what they do not have in life and think that if I only had a new car, a girlfriend / boyfriend a better job or home then I would be happy. But the truth is that while the things will make you happy for a short time they will never bring you joy. Because you will always want for more or newer or bigger. True joy in life can only come from one place and that is God. Are happiness is up to our self and how we choose to look at the world. I could make the choice to look at all the things I do not have and feel sad for my self or I could look at all the great things I have and know that I am blessed because I deserve none of it.

My first week of school

So I had made it threw the first week of school and I must say that I am pretty excited for the new journey I am starting in life. The first day of my golf class was a little lame we had a 30 min. orientation and filled out some paper work and that was it. I do need to by another book for the class which I really did not want to do as I have already spent so much money on books but I guess I have to do what I have to do. I also have to write a one page paper on why I am taking the class but that should not be to hard. My Intro to Fashion class was fun and no I am not the only straight guy in the class. I will have to present 10 stories on fashion over the semester and do other project that will help me learn about my own creativity. I think I will learn some very good things in that class. In my Psy. of Clothing class I will have to do many of the same things but I can use them for both classes. On the first day of that class instead of talking about our self we stood up in class and listened to what the others thought of us. I really enjoyed it as some of the things they said about be were pretty spot on and others were way off. And yes I am the only straight guy in this class. I thing that this class more then the others will force me to think out side of my life and look at things a new way. I really look forwad to all the things I will learn about fashion and myself. I think that this new path my life is taking will be very exciting and I will learn a lot of new thing.